Now the names of the twelve apostles are these; The first, Simon, who is called Peter, and Andrew his brother; James [the son] of Zebedee, and John his brother;Matthew 10:2
John does not give an account of all the initial twelve like the other gospels. Nor does he ever state his own name in events.
Now there was leaning on Jesus’ bosom one of his disciples, whom Jesus loved.John 13:23
The Apostle John is the self-described disciple, whom Jesus loved. And that theme of love permeates his writings which include the Gospel, three epistles, and the book of Revelation.
We see John being bold and impetuous with his brother James throughout the gospel accounts. They along with Peter teach us many lessons about being patient and waiting on direction from the Lord.
But as the time of Christ’s death grows close, we see the love of God for John begin to be reciprocated by him. John is faithfully present through all the injustices of Jesus’ trial. He watches every moment of the scourging, the crown of thorns, and the crucifixion. He was loved by Jesus and he loved Him back, deeply.
Moments before His death, Jesus acknowledges this love from John and tells him to take care of His earthly mother, Mary.
One of the most striking evidences of love in John’s writings is found in his first letter. The theme of that writing is love, fellowship, and obedience. He wrote the letter so that believers could have a deeper love for God. He tells us that to have fellowship with God, we must keep His commandments.
The commandment he focuses on is love.
We love God by loving others. When we draw close to others, we are drawing close to God.
It would seem that John wants us all to be able to lay our head on Jesus’ chest.