We don’t need huge stadiums with rock concerts or million dollar book deals. We need to evangelize Jesus’ way. Deep fellowship with one other person or a small group is the key to truly making devout disciples of Jesus.
Jesus died for all your sins including the sin of doubt and unbelief. Ask your Heavenly Father for help with your doubts. He stands ready to bless you all good things!
Keep in mind that this kingdom of heaven is not separate from the eternal realm of God. It is part of it! And the love we share and feel in church is the same quality of love in heaven that we will experience for eternity!